||[May. 2nd, 2005|01:26 pm]
Saturday practice was.. Interesting. Eventful. Somewhat annoying.
I was in a total freestyle mood again, it was crazy. We did our exhibition thing. Hot stuff. Then.. blah blah.. long story.. talking crap about Josh and then I guess he heard and then got all attitude-ified.. then walked out in the middle of the class. Whatev. But I did a really awesome travel/LOF/ROB camel during the level 1/2. It was sexy. And surprising.
Oh yes, attempted axel = bruises on knee.
Speaking of which, I HATE AXELS!! It's so frustrating to see people that you know you are better than doing axels. I hate it. I hate being capable of doing an axel, but when I try, my body chickens out on me and just stops. I hate not being able to control it. It's like.. if you're afraid of talking in front of people and even though you don't want to get nervous and speed up what you're saying, and you don't know why it happens, and you try so hard to just do it, you still get so nervous. I want to do an axel, I know how to do an axel, I know I'm good enough to do an axel, but every time I try, I either stop before I even jump, or just jump really weird and bad and fall. And I really can't control it. It's just so frustrating. You have no idea.
Yesterday Josh showed up for our performance thing, but then left after like 5 min. I didn't know why until later, but.. He quit. He was rude and immature. Even though I didn't like him, that still sucks for Janet cause now she has to take over all the freestyle again.
Anyways, the MAC thing yesterday was cool. I love skating in front of people when it's just exhibitions like that. It's so fun.
Well I'm home cause I feel like crap. So blah and like weak. I could like barely stand up this morning.
Wow I say 'like' a lot.
My jaw is like popped out of place again so I can barely open my mouth. It hurts and it's really annoying. And I can't eat. Or brush my teeth. UUGGHHH!!