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(no subject) [Apr. 18th, 2008|12:08 am]
Sitting in my room, listening to music.
Feel... I'm not sure. Weird.

I went to this program tonight called "I Know What You're Doing This Summer..." that was basically just information about summer "opportunities" such as research, internships, blah blah blah.

Just made me feel like I'm way off track. Or like I should be doing engineering or pre-med or something. Not like I want to, just like I should.

Doesn't really interest me at all. I'm not too big into science, and the idea of being in a lab for hours at a time makes me want to puke. The only thing I would even mildly enjoy is forensics, but you can't even do that until you're like a Ph.D. student. Which is a joke.

Doing what? I'm a math major for Pete's sake. I know you don't have to do it in your major, but isn't the point to get experience? I don't know what other like field I would apply for an internship in anyway. Urgh.

Basically I feel like since I'm (allegedly) "smart" I should have higher goals or like, desire a more "successful" career, i.e. engineer, doctor, lawyer. I mean, if I do want to be a teacher, really what kind of research or internship could I get relating to that?

Do I even want to be a teacher?

I feel like I don't belong here at UF. It has like the #1 research programs in like a bunch of fields and whatnot. And like, supposedly it could be pretty easy to get an internship since I go here because it looks good or whatever. But I don't really want to.

I don't actually want to be a doctor or an engineer, but sometimes I want to want to. If that makes sense.

Also, Jacob seems to always want to emphasize his double major pre-med crap. Like earlier he was like, I mean if you want to be a teacher than it doesn't really matter if you do research, but I'm pre-med so it's pretty much required. Which I know is somewhat true, but he said it dick-ish. Like I'M PRE-MED. I HAVE TO. Like he's better than me.

Which he is not.

Whatever. I will be spending my summer skating as much as possible, and hopefully coaching too. That could make me a little bit of money. But I will be working too, either as a lifeguard at Lake Lytal/Santaluces or at Build-A-Bear with Kyla. Or something else lame, but probably one of those.

I might apply for Preview staff next year. I think it could be cool, but at the same time I kind of don't know if I wanna apply. Because, first of all, I doubt myself. I don't really think I would get it, and that would suck. I wish I wasn't so afraid of interview situations, because that's like the only way to make a good impression and get any job or anything. And I suck at it. Secondly, I don't know if I would want to be away from skating all summer. I guess I'd have to check the dates and stuff, and see how this summer goes. I'd have the apartment so on my days off I wouldn't have to be in Broward constantly, which is good. I think if I did make it on to Preview staff it would really help with my (currently non-existent) leadership skills. And help me to be more open in front of people, like less shy.

I kind of want to apply for Cicerones too. But again, I doubt my ability to actually make it. It's apparently really hard to get accepted, but would be cool. Kinda feel the same about that as Preview.

I want to get involved with stuff in college, I really do. I just haven't really found anything TO get involved with. There's probably some weird Math thing I could do. Maybe I'll do Habitat for Humanity next year. Or some of those clubs I thought about joining but then didn't. Cru? NeW? Eh, I'll figure it out. I always do.
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(no subject) [Jun. 23rd, 2006|12:47 am]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

Today was pimp.

Got up, ate, chores...

Took Kelley to Target [saw my BFF] to get a birthday present for Megan. Then to McDonalds to get ice cream. This guy walked up to my car in the drive-thru saying he'd give me $100 to drive him to Yamato and 95. I said no. He was high. Then took Kelley to Megan's house.

Next, Wal-Mart. No specific reason. Just why the hell not. And there was a blood drive thing. So I called my mom and she came and I gave blood.

And then I passed out.

Went to surprise Charles by picking him up from work, but it was too early. Stopped by Ace's house but he wasn't home. Headed over to Bengtson's, then she called saying she was at my house. Like wtf who does that. So, since we were in the area, BURGESS!!! It was sweet. We went to Mrs. Burgess' house. She was the only one home, but she let us in and we were talking and stuff. Gave me some hawaiian punch. I love her.

Then picked up the boy. Glad we're not fighting anymore.

And then more. But I'm tired and don't feel like typing anymore. But that's basically it.

I used to say I felt like I was talking to myself when I wrote in this thing. And that's when I knew people read it. Now I know no one does, so it's even worse. Teehee.
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kldjflkjynhuruhjtnfk [Jun. 22nd, 2006|12:02 am]
I got my orthotics today. Finally. They hurt my feet. But that's just cause I have to get used to them. I think they're gonna help a lot.

Our practice got cut short, so we went to the outdoor rink by Park Vista. [Which I did not even know existed.] But it was freakin awesome. It was like getting dark, nice breeze, not too hot. It pretty much rocked.

Idk why I felt like writing in this thing... <3
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myspace deprivation. [Mar. 14th, 2006|09:46 pm]
[Current Mood |touchedtouched]
[Current Music |You Found Me - Kelly Clarkson]

The last time I wrote in this was October. It is now March. Wow.

What ever happened to the whole LiveJournal craze??

Oh yeah.


Damn Lent.

Nobody's funna read this anyways.

Might as well waste some time...

-4 days = ITALY & GREECE TRIP!!!

-I'm dropping out of school to work on a Mexican avocado farm.

-I have a B in English :( tear...

-I had lunch detention today for being late. Because no matter how early I get up, I am incapable of being to school early.

-I really should be packing right now.

-Or making sure my article journal is all ready.

-Or sleeping.

-Yet I continue to enumerate random things.

-Today I felt pretty good. Which is ironic.

-But a lot of stuff is ironic lately.

-You'd be surprised.

-I feel like eating ice cream.

-We don't have any.

-Courtney's not home yet. Track meet.

-Nicole's not here either. Hmm...

-I'm listening to You Found Me. [only one person will get that..]

-Damn. So effin true.

-That sucks.

I'm gonna stop now. No one will read this anyway. Peace up. A-town down.
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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2005|01:50 pm]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]
[Current Music |Just the Girl - The Click Five]

So we started skating at Atlantis last week. It's pretty gay. Not as bad as we were expecting, but still. And The Palace is still effing open. Ugh. It's so gay that there's nothing we can do about it. Whatever.

A lot of you might not care, but...
I've been thinking a lot about skating, and I think I might quit freestyle. Might. Idk. I love doing it, I just don't have the motivation to work on the harder stuff and I don't think I should just keep on doing the same jumps I've been doing for years. I know that I have good technique and everything on the axel and I COULD get it if I really wanted to, but I just don't have that WANT. I'm gonna keep at it for at least a little longer, though. I'm not sure. But I really wanna teach. I love it. Today I noticed that whenever I see someone fall I like tell them how to fix it and stuff. Like today I got Erik landing his axel. It feels good to see someone do something and know that YOU taught them. And Alli too. I taught her all her half jumps and the other day she was doing single mapes. It's really cool. And Janet told me that it takes something special to teach, and she thinks I have it. I was really happy. I love her so much!

Anyways, I'm in Sarasota. Tonight I'm going to homecoming here. With Alex, Rielle, Holly, maybe Lando.. Well technically with Alex, but idk if it's like a date or what.. Lol whatever. When I got here they were like 'You're coming to homecoming with us' so, I am wearing one of Rielle's dresses and going. haha.

Well, I'm supposed to be doing English homework, so I should do that.

*You'll always be the dream that fills my head. Yes you will..
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(no subject) [Aug. 30th, 2005|06:59 pm]
[Current Mood |quixoticquixotic]
[Current Music |UCT]

01. Last Cigarette: NEVER.. GROSS
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: ABOUT BILL COSBY FOR LAST YEAR
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: UNDISCOVERED
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: UH I DONT REMEMBER..
08. Last Beverage Drank: ORANGE SODA... CAUSE IM BLACK BITCH
09. Last Food Consumed: THIS COOKIE IM EATING
12. Last Time Showered: UUUMMMM... LOL YESTERDAY
13. Last Shoes Worn: BLACK FLIP FLOPS
15. Last Soda Drank: SUNKIST
16. Last Thing Written: MY TRIG TEST..
17. Last Words Spoken: THANKS
18. Last Annoyance: "HILLARY"
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: UHH.. IDK
20. Last Web Site Visited: BESIDES LJ, MYSPACE

B O D Y:
02. Tattoos: NOPE
05. Hair color: ..A VERY GOOD QUESTION
L A S T . . .
01. Movie you rented: IDK
02. Movie you bought: UGH NICOLE BOUGHT THE OC SEASON 2
03. Song you listened to: CROSSFADE - COLD
04. Song that was stuck in your head: IDK WHAT ITS CALLED.. AAA FROM AIMEE'S CAR.. ITS SO HARD SO FUCKIN HARD.. LOL
05. CD you bought: I DONT BUY CDS
07. Person you've called: UH NICOLE
08. Person that's called you: COURTNEY
10. Person you were thinking of: UM.. "HILLARY" UGH WHAT A B WORD
11. Friend(s) you made: I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS..


01. You have a crush on someone: YES
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: UM NOT REALLY
03. You think about suicide: NO NOT REALLY..
04. You believe in online dating: NO THATS LAME
05. Others find you attractive: HMM YOU TELL ME
07. You drink: NEVER... AHAHA
08. You do drugs: EW. NEVER. FOR REAL THIS TIME.
09. You smoke: GROSS.
11. You like roller coasters: YEAH DAWG
12. You write in cursive or print: UGH I ALWAYS WRITE DIFFERENT.. AND SLOPPY USUALLY

F O R *O R *A G A I N S T...
01. Long distance relationship: AGAINST
02. Teenage smoking: ANY SMOKING=GROSS
03. Doing drugs: EHH AGAINST
04. Premarital sex: UH IF YOU WANT... SKANKS THESE DAYS
05. Driving drunk: AGAINST
06. Soap operas: "SOAP OPERAS SUCK" -KURT

01. Ever cried over a female: NOT RECENTLY..
02. Ever lied to someone: YES
03. Ever faked an orgasm: ALL THE TIME
04. Ever been in a fistfight: NOPE. ONLY WITH NICOLE, IN SLOW MOTION..
05. Ever been arrested: NO

W H A T...
02. Shoes do you wear: UM THE KIND THAT GO ON YOUR FEET..
03. Are you scared of: 300 POUND BEEFY ASIAN WOMEN..

01. Of times you have been in love? ZERO
02. Of times you have had your heart broken? UHH IDK
03. Of hearts you have broken? IDK.. I THINK A FEW..
04. Of drugs taken illegally? HMM..
05. Of people you consider your enemies? LIKE 23.892567
06. Of scars on your body? DO NORMAL PEOPLE COUNT??
07. Of things in your past that you regret? UM IDK..
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hottasamofo = tony peck.. and yes, its one word. [Aug. 5th, 2005|10:47 pm]
[Current Mood |blahblah]

So right now I am in Sarasota. Almost home. I stayed for World Class at Nationals with the coach from here and came back with her, and tonight my family is coming here to get me. But I think we're staying till like Sunday. I wanna go home though. I've been gone for way too long.

So Nationals was fun. I did.. ehh.. alright. In dance I really did not skate very well. I wasn't happy with it so I didn't expect to make finals. I got 22nd. Oh well. I like the Sophomore A dances better anyways. In freestyle I was happy with it though. I skated really well. I messed up my last spin but that's it. I got 13th. Which doesn't sound great but considering in the event you can go up to axel, double mapes, and double salchow, and i have none of those, that's pretty good.

Uugghhh I don't want to go back to school. It sucks. And I really didn't do much this summer. And because of Nationals, my summer is over by mid-July. Oh well. I love Nationals.

And World Class was awesome. Even though Kathy Kimura had to quit, Kyle Turley skated with Heather Menard (ew Kathy was way better), and Edrick stewart and Meghan Burt (the best pairs team in the world) didn't skate. But none of you care about that cause you are all losers..

My phone is officially retarded. It doesn't work. So don't call me. I need a new one. You can text though.

Well that was long enough for now I guess. Supposedly my mom is getting the computer fixed and getting cable internet. But idk, sometimes she lies.

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hmm.. [Jul. 14th, 2005|09:13 pm]
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]

Well right now I'm at Megan's casa. Yep.. We're just chillin and such..

Well I'm kinda disappointed because there's like no one coming to my freaking dinner thing. But whatever.. You all have your reasons.. But if you're not out of town (sluts)/working/"moving" (what a loser) than you better be there. Or not, ya know, whatever.

Wow, when you don't write for a long time you really don't know what to say..

Well today has been interesting so far...

Whatever I'm done. Too lazy to write.
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fill it out... you know you wanna.. [Jul. 14th, 2005|09:11 pm]
[1]go out with me?
[2]kiss me?
[3]let me kiss you?
[4] watch a movie with me?
[5] let me take you out to dinner?
[6] let me drive you somewhere?
[7] cut some rug with me?
[8] take a shower with me?
[9] be my bf/gf?
[10] have a fling with me?
[11] let me buy you a drink?
[12] take me home for the night?
[13] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[14] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[15] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[16] give me a piggyback ride?
[17] Come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[18] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[19] lick my cheek?
[20] dance with me?
[21] let me make you breakfast?
[22] help me with homework?
[23] tickle me to death?
[24] let me tickle you?
[25] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[26] play strip poker with me?
[27] say yes if i asked you out?
[28] get wasted with me?
[29] rub me down with body butter?
[30] instant message me?
[31] greet me in public?
[32] hang out with me?
[33] bring me around your friends?

DO YOU?...::
[34] think im cute?
[35] think im pretty?
[36] think im hot?
[37] want to kiss me?
[38] want to cuddle wit me?
[39] want to hook up with me?
[40] want my number?[if you dont have it already]

ARE WE...::
[41] secret lovers?
[42] acquaintances?
[43] friends?
[44] in a relationship?
[45] exes?
[46] gonna have kids?
[47] gonna go out?

AM I...::
[48] smart?
[49] cute?
[50] funny?
[51] cool?
[52] loveable?
[53] adorable?
[54] compassionate?
[55] annoying?
[56] great to be with?
[57] attractive?
[58] mean?
[59] odd?

[60] thought about me?
[61] thought there might be an "us"?
[62] thought about hookin up with me?
[63] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[64] wished i were there?
[65] grabbed me?
[66] had a crush on me?
[67] idolized me?
[68] wanted my number?
[69] had a dream about me?
[70] been distracted by me?

[71] a slut?
[72] a whore?
[73] a good friend?
[74] loyal?
[75] interesting?
[76] nice?
[77] cool?
[78] popular?
[79] a geek?
[80] smart?
[81] funny?
[82] have a good sense of humour?
[83] flirty?
[84] your type?

[85] do you drink [alcohol]?
[86] do you smoke?
[87] whats your type?
[88] do you think your attractive?
[89] do you like football?
[90] do you like baseball?
[91] do you like soccer?
[92] do you like volleyball?
[93] do you like skateboarding?
[94] do you like surfing?
[95] do you like windsurfing?
[96] do you like snowboarding?
[97] do you like skiing?
[98] do you like jet skiing?
[99] do you like wake boarding?
[100] are you annoyed with all the questions yet?
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(no subject) [Jul. 11th, 2005|09:22 pm]
Wednesday. July 20th. 6:30-9:30. $7. The Palace Skating Rink. My Spaghetti Dinner. YOU ARE ALL EFFING COMING!!!

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If you can go then call me and I'll leave a ticket at the door for you. But you should all come cause I'm like such a freakin awesome skater and stuff.. pssht yeah right.. But it's to raise money for Nationals so you should come.
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